I'm sorry...

A heart is torn open,
A love is broken,
A life is empty,
With few words spoken.

The words are spoken,
Are what I appear?
Like the loss of your love,
Is the blank I fear?

Knowing you hate me,
Is a terrible fate?
I thought the there was hope,
But it was too late.

What is spoken is spoken,
And what is done is done,
I spoke without thinking,
And know you are gone.

I hope one day that I will
Earn your heart back
Because I still truly love you
And that us a fact.

I made mistakes...

I know I've made mistakes
So why should I even try
For when you look at me
All you see is that I lie

I'm sorry for the things I said
For giving you false truth in your head
I know that I've caused pain
that I drive you insane

Though you may not see what's inside of me
You should know it's deader than the Dead Sea
You may think that I don't care
For all I give is just a stare

But what you don't know
Is that the love I have for you is what glows
So I promise to try hard and to be true to you
So that our happiness will not be through

All I ask is one thing to see
Can you find it in your heart to forgive me?
For there is one thing I know is true
I do Love You...

as the time goes by...

i don't know what to write anymore...i feel so tired these few days..with a lot of works need to be done (class teacher does have a lot of job to be done...perghh)..

hopefully, i can cope with this situation for months to come (or at least 1 year, before I need to settle down everything..)

...with the new 'business' to do, I really need to gear up myself to the next level!!! otherwise, it's nothing...

Oh Allah, please help your servant here...amin

salam.

Becoming Teacher & 2000km

Roughly about 1 more week to go before I start my real life as a teacher. I hope my new school somewhere inside the kampung area. It’s not that I want to live in a rural area, but I am really eager to see high level of respect of ‘orang kampung’ compared to ‘orang bandar’. It’s not that I’m being so sceptical; it’s just a true fact. Rural people tend to respect the knowledge given by their teacher better since they know it’s not easy for them to gain knowledge. Nevertheless, I don’t really mind with what I’ll know soon. ;) More importantly, I hope I can gain knowledge and experience as much as I can for my own benefits in case I want to ask for another place for future posting! Hehe..

Okeh, Acap! I know you can give your best to teach the students and you’ll be a great teacher and mentor 1 day! InsyaAllah..

2000km..that the number of kilometres travelled by me just in a week. Huu, cool right? Even though it’s a very tiring experience, but I like it. To sacrifice for my family, my own future, it’s really worth it. Because I know Allah is the best in knowing what‘s the Best to his servant. InsyaAllah..

Ameen…

My Birthday Present to her..my LGF

It’s been a long time since I gave my LGF a card. Really long time. Hehe. When I read her blog about she received my card, I was so happy yet want to cry too because she’s really love the present. Thanks dear. I love you dearly too! xoxo. 

Yes, January is your month. Hopefully I’ll be the first person to wish your birthday face to face 1 day. 

And also, I want to thank Hana Tajima and DianaRikasari for wishing my LGF’s birthday. Thanks you, guys, you’ve really made her day!!

Thanks! And for my LGF, I will always be there for you, because I’m yours. Hehe! ;)

Posting!

Alhamdulillah..like finally, dh tau dh exact date utk posting..as expected, lepas raya cina..so, just wait and see, where will I be posted to..will I get my dream place? the rural area?..i don't really mind now as long as I get a school and start my career there...

Yet, I still feel nervous because of the long holidays while waiting for the posting arrangement..I haven't done anything to improve my grammar, my teaching speaking skills and not to forget my teacher presentations..

So? what are you waiting for, Acap? You better prepare yourself, otherwise, they'll bully you at your new school..haha!

Ok, that's it! Enough!

Bye!

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Salahkah bila aku mencintaimu
Dan berharap engkau kan jadi milikku
Walau banyak yang bilang kau tak pantas untukku

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Jiwa ragaku ini hanya untukkmu
Aku rela berkorban demi cintamu itu

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Ku terima kau apa adanya
Yang penting aku bahagia

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Ku terima kau apa adanya
Yang penting aku bahagia

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