I'm sorry...

A heart is torn open,
A love is broken,
A life is empty,
With few words spoken.

The words are spoken,
Are what I appear?
Like the loss of your love,
Is the blank I fear?

Knowing you hate me,
Is a terrible fate?
I thought the there was hope,
But it was too late.

What is spoken is spoken,
And what is done is done,
I spoke without thinking,
And know you are gone.

I hope one day that I will
Earn your heart back
Because I still truly love you
And that us a fact.

I made mistakes...

I know I've made mistakes
So why should I even try
For when you look at me
All you see is that I lie

I'm sorry for the things I said
For giving you false truth in your head
I know that I've caused pain
that I drive you insane

Though you may not see what's inside of me
You should know it's deader than the Dead Sea
You may think that I don't care
For all I give is just a stare

But what you don't know
Is that the love I have for you is what glows
So I promise to try hard and to be true to you
So that our happiness will not be through

All I ask is one thing to see
Can you find it in your heart to forgive me?
For there is one thing I know is true
I do Love You...

as the time goes by...

i don't know what to write anymore...i feel so tired these few days..with a lot of works need to be done (class teacher does have a lot of job to be done...perghh)..

hopefully, i can cope with this situation for months to come (or at least 1 year, before I need to settle down everything..)

...with the new 'business' to do, I really need to gear up myself to the next level!!! otherwise, it's nothing...

Oh Allah, please help your servant here...amin

salam.

Becoming Teacher & 2000km

Roughly about 1 more week to go before I start my real life as a teacher. I hope my new school somewhere inside the kampung area. It’s not that I want to live in a rural area, but I am really eager to see high level of respect of ‘orang kampung’ compared to ‘orang bandar’. It’s not that I’m being so sceptical; it’s just a true fact. Rural people tend to respect the knowledge given by their teacher better since they know it’s not easy for them to gain knowledge. Nevertheless, I don’t really mind with what I’ll know soon. ;) More importantly, I hope I can gain knowledge and experience as much as I can for my own benefits in case I want to ask for another place for future posting! Hehe..

Okeh, Acap! I know you can give your best to teach the students and you’ll be a great teacher and mentor 1 day! InsyaAllah..

2000km..that the number of kilometres travelled by me just in a week. Huu, cool right? Even though it’s a very tiring experience, but I like it. To sacrifice for my family, my own future, it’s really worth it. Because I know Allah is the best in knowing what‘s the Best to his servant. InsyaAllah..

Ameen…

My Birthday Present to her..my LGF

It’s been a long time since I gave my LGF a card. Really long time. Hehe. When I read her blog about she received my card, I was so happy yet want to cry too because she’s really love the present. Thanks dear. I love you dearly too! xoxo. 

Yes, January is your month. Hopefully I’ll be the first person to wish your birthday face to face 1 day. 

And also, I want to thank Hana Tajima and DianaRikasari for wishing my LGF’s birthday. Thanks you, guys, you’ve really made her day!!

Thanks! And for my LGF, I will always be there for you, because I’m yours. Hehe! ;)

Posting!

Alhamdulillah..like finally, dh tau dh exact date utk posting..as expected, lepas raya cina..so, just wait and see, where will I be posted to..will I get my dream place? the rural area?..i don't really mind now as long as I get a school and start my career there...

Yet, I still feel nervous because of the long holidays while waiting for the posting arrangement..I haven't done anything to improve my grammar, my teaching speaking skills and not to forget my teacher presentations..

So? what are you waiting for, Acap? You better prepare yourself, otherwise, they'll bully you at your new school..haha!

Ok, that's it! Enough!

Bye!

Cinta Itu Buta

Salahkah bila aku mencintaimu
Dan berharap engkau kan jadi milikku
Walau banyak yang bilang kau tak pantas untukku

Sayang ku mohon jangan tolak cintaku
Jiwa ragaku ini hanya untukkmu
Aku rela berkorban demi cintamu itu

Biarlah orang berkata apa
Manusia tiada yang sempurna
Ku terima kau apa adanya
Yang penting aku bahagia

Manusia tiada yang sempurna
Ku terima kau apa adanya
Yang penting aku bahagia

Sayang.. cinta itu buta

Facebook? why?

Facebook..I used to call it in Malay, "bukumuka" years ago...

Yesterday, I saw a status said something like "Please think before you post anything, because your status or post could show that whether you're an intelligent person or just 'having-fun-all-the-time" person".. There's a comment that captured my eyes while reading it, he wrote something like this (I summarized it here).. "you can write whatever you want as it is your status, your feeling, what you want to say here is totally yours...It's up to you to write something serious, something cool, something "less-intelligent (not stupid)"...blablabla..

Man, I agree with you!

Facebook or bukumuka? why is it called Facebook? It's because, Facebook is 2 different things:

Face = hidden 1001 secrets, 1001 feelings, 1001 expressions...even when you sad, you can still smile (according to our mind-instruction) to avoid other people to feel the sadness..How amazing is our face, right? Syukur..

Book = thing that recorded all the things happen in this life, through writing... Without book, its difficult for us to keep the memories alive..right? Ok, maybe some people can still argue that we still have papers to write on, tissue, on a tree, yes, of course you can, but nothing would beat the power of a book..am I right? There's a 'story' in book that you would love to read, not on a tree!? =)

So,

Facebook is all yours to express your feelings, secrets, whatsoever through writing, as long as you know your limits, not to hurt others feelings, then, there shouldn't be anyone to stop you from 'writing' your own 'feelings' inside your Face+Book...

That's it!

Bye!

Saman and the other S...

Today, I went to Kaunter Trafik cawangan Kuantan to pay my saman, and as expected, not many people there. So, I just wait for my turn while listening to the person in front of me..

"Ape? 16 Saman? cik, cube cek skali lg? takkan la smpai 16..banyak sgt tu.."

and on the other end..

"12? ok la tu kot, lgpon dh dpt diskaun ni, trus je la byar, mlas nk pkir2 dh"

an old guy with 16 saman and 12 saman for a young woman..

it made me thinking that the old guy maybe was a good driver that he's quite shocked with the total saman he got, while for that woman, she must be too 'good' to drive a car without been compounded. With 12 saman at her age (around 30s), for me it's not possible for her to increase that number 1 day..haha

After I've settled my saman, (alaa, nsib baek rm30 jer pon), I went to carre4 to get the other S..I don't know why I'm so crazily-craving for it..maybe because in KL, I used to have it once a week or 2 weeks..

Patient?was no more inside this midy (mind+body), I even ate it on my motorcycle on my way back home...

Oh...Sushi..i miss u so much..not to forget, u, wasabi..

ok, done! bye..

Today's date..

I've chosen today's date to create this blog...11/1/11..and this year (Rabbit Year)..as I was born on this year...

Hopefully, I can achieve my intended goals for this year (urmm, also for the following years)..hurmm..I guess I would have a lot of time to be 'together' with this blog while waiting for the late posting..sigh..

Yang penting, ini blog suke2 aje...it's all about my life and my surroundings together with my unlimited imaginations..heee..

Oraito, first entry done!